Like a jellyfish caught in the current of an ocean storm …

Like a jellyfish caught in the current of an ocean storm …
I’m adrift, floating aimlessly between memories that seem to emerge randomly … without warning. I watch the strands of my past tie themselves to my present and understand the patterns. Every now and then there’s a shaft of light emerging from the cloud of my subconscious mind allowing for a moment of enlightenment that I have to somehow record before my ailing memory allows it to disappear as whispy smoke between my fingers.

It gets frustrating as I sit within myself and contemplate the lesson, only to emerge a while later, feeling like I’ve just sat in a timless bubble for a few hours … having forgotten the moment.

I keep telling myself to sit with a pen and a pad and to write these ideas down … but that can cause more frustration, as I keep forgetting … and I refuse to be hard on myself, as that is one lesson that I have learned and remembered … that I have to be kinder to myself.

The more that I explore my journey, the more I understand myself, my ideals and my reasons for taking this path. The more that I remember the hurdles that I’ve cleared, the more I accept and respect my ‘self’.

I wish this part of the journey was more easy going though … or is it and I’m less able to cope wit the hurdles now?

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